By: Wilson
In the past few weeks, I’ve been driving with absolutely nothing playing in the car. No radio, no Apple Music, no Audible, no podcasts, nothing, just total silence.
I wanted to spend the time to think, allow myself to let my mind wander. And when I do that, I have the tendency to dwell on my past mistakes. What I could’ve done, what I should’ve done differently, and how I can learn from those mistakes.
Perhaps it’s a genetic defect. I rarely spend time on the things I do well. Perhaps it’s just being too critical of myself. I rarely let myself celebrate any success. The way I look at it: if you aren’t trying to get better, then you will never get better. So spending time thinking about what you did well won’t actually make any difference. I guess that’s why I focus on the mistakes. So the more I let my mind wander, the more frustrated I get.
How many more “lessons” do I need before I actually get good at this game?